The Sudden Breeze

Notice the empty glass Longing to be poured a calm comfort Weaves of threads awaits folded and still Familiar footprints gentle touches of open palms Tears and wishes, whispers and fears Embrace and cradle me once again Coating heaven to these heavy breaths Till the fire inside smiles And a steady peace follows ~Alia Adistya

I had another vivid physical dream last night. I am sitting there and looking down at the calf of my right leg. There are several 5 cm bumps all over growing bigger and bigger until it breaks open, turning into 8 open wounds looking like deep hallowed pockets of skin. Inside these skin pockets I am able to see my flesh and each of them has a large tumor resting inside... the tumor though is shaped like a smooth beige pebble, and one by one I shove my fingers into these wounds and take the pebble out, and with each wound I compress it and heal it till the skin is flat again. The process is painful and I feel the piercing irritation each time I place my hand on the wound to press the skin back in its place. But in the end, I am able to take all the pebbles out and heal my leg. From dreammoods.com Legs  To see your legs in your dream, indicate that you have regained confidence to stand up and take control again. It also implies progress and your ability to navigate through life. If you

photo source: vi.sualize.us I watched a television show awhile ago about near death experiences, and one of the incident was of a man who was struck by a snow avalanche and was able to survive after 48 hours of being stranded. In the hospital, his wife held him when he finally gained consciousness... and his first words were "You smell like heaven"

Looking at my non-existent savings account, my credit card bills, and the shopping spree I've journeyed into these past 2 weeks, I ask myself how did I get here again? I'm back to where I started over a decade ago in New York with my wide-eyed, heart racing excitement caused by my first plastic card looking at "objects" in a different sort of way... finding the amazing variety of cute shops promising you individual style for the millions of people, the red banners with the letters S-A-L-E and once in a lifetime sample sales held a few times each year. Moving to Jakarta, I presumed the temptations would be less challenging but I admit I was wrong. When it comes to online shopping, bazaars, clothing, shoes, souvenirs, gadgets, well actually any kind of shopping, I buy more than i need, and spend more than my budget. The sad thing is I only use half of the things I buy, and the rest takes its long nap underneath the chaos of my unorganized closet. How easy it is to get